When You’re Asian And More Fluent In English


Bodil-Jane-Illustration-Characters-Japan-Modern-Gaaru-2-768x543@2xEnglish was one of my favourite subjects at school as I loved writing essays and reading novels. Although there’s still many aspects where I can improve (note my use of grammar and structuring). My mother tongue is Chinese, as I grew up learning Chinese first before English. We used to go to Saturday Chinese school as children, but I was quite lazy and didn’t feel any motivation to learn it since I was speaking English at school. Perhaps it was because all my friends spoke English, and I wasn’t living in a place or going to a school that had many people speaking Chinese.

However, now that I’m older I embrace the fact that I’m both Taiwanese and Kiwi. They are both important aspects of my identity. I realise how important it is to keep your mother tongue alive. It’s important to remind yourself what a blessing it is to speak Chinese and English. When I look back, I am incredibly grateful that my parents only spoke Mandarin to my sister and I, because language is such an important part of us. I appreciate growing up being surrounded by books and building a huge interest in reading. Now that I’m older, I put more effort into writing, reading and listening to Chinese. I used to feel a sense of guilt and shame because my Chinese wasn’t fluent but my physical identity says that I should be.

In high school, my English teacher said that it’s okay that my essay had a few grammar mistakes, because English is my second language. The trouble was that she was more lenient with me even though I was keen to improve my writing. Most of my classmates said I’m lucky I had English as a second language as an excuse, but to me it seemed quite stereotypical, because I was more fluent in English and when other classmates made grammatical mistakes it wasn’t focused on what ethnicity they are.

The beauty of language is that it allows us to communicate to different people. I’ve been asked many times if I’m an international student or what country I moved from to New Zealand. It’s understandable, because Auckland is quite a multicultural city and there are people from a vast majority of different countries. However, it does remind me of my identity and being asked these sort of questions many times has made me more assured of my own cultural identity. I suppose in writing this, I’d love to encourage you to embrace your mother tongue. Having that is such a precious part of you that can never be taken away from you. If you are also an Asian that is more fluent in English, know that you can improve your mother tongue through self motivation, practice and patience.

Artwork – Modern Girl by Bodil Jane

11 thoughts on “When You’re Asian And More Fluent In English

  1. Love this post. I grew up in China and started learning English when I was about 12 years old. I do still speak Chinese at home but I feel like sometimes I’m more fluent in English because I’m exposed to it everyday

  2. I can’t believe how much I relate to your post. As someone who was born and raised in Portugal, but is ethnically Chinese, I have struggled many times with my identity and not being able to embrace the Chinese language fully. As I’m growing older, I can finally see the beauty in Mandarin even though I can’t even write or read it, but this definitely takes time and hopefully one day I’ll be able to confidently say that I am fluent in Mandarin :)

  3. I definitely understand this, I’m ethnically Pakistani but was born and raised in England. When I went to uni I was worried that I was losing my Urdu. I’m so glad I know it as it helps me understand the Asian side of my identity but English is definitely my first language now (despite learning Urdu first and English second).

  4. I have the same issue (being more fluent in English than in Mandarin). I started learning Mandarin at the age of 5 and stopped once I entered high school (I was enrolled in a government school where we mostly use Malay and English). Since my parents can’t speak Mandarin, I don’t get to practice much when I was younger. What’s worst is that I have no interest in Mandarin at all. Eventually, my English skills begin to surpass my Mandarin skills. Such a shame, considering I’m Malaysian Chinese. That said I’m determine to brush up on my Mandarin skills. I already planned to dedicate a few months to practice reading and writing in Chinese. I even started texting my friends in Mandarin (much to their surprise). Can’t wait to be fluent in Chinese again! :) Thank you for sharing!

  5. Thank you for sharing with me :) English is definitely a language that’s very easy to pick up, whereas improving Chinese takes time but is so worth it! That’s wonderful to hear. I really think that Mandarin is so important to know.

  6. Sister! My mother is Taiwanese and my Father is a Kiwi (though his parents are British immigrants). I was born in Taiwan but grew up in NZ. My mother stopped speaking to me only in mandarin when I started primary school because the teachers said my English was behind my age and its probably because my mother is Chinese. In the 90’s, it wasn’t common knowledge that children brought up bilingual start off slow with language development, but then later excel. Did your family experience anything like this? I’m the same, my English is much, much better than my Mandarin. I’ve tried to speak it more with my family, but it’s just not habit so I feel a bit awkward as I’m not fluent. Ah well, practice more right? Are you still living in Auckland? I moved away to the UK 10 years ago with my parents and I’ve heard Auckland has changed a lot.

  7. Thanks so much for your comment, it was so interesting to read. I was born in NZ but my parents are from Taiwan. I was fortunate in that my parents always and still speak only Mandarin to me, so I had to speak it whenever I was at home. However, I definitely feel my English is a lot more fluent as well! Yes, practice is a great way to keep improving. I still live in Auckland, I have previously lived in Sydney and I still visit Taiwan every year. However, it’d be nice to perhaps live in Taiwan one day. I must visit Europe some day! It has probably changed quite a lot in the last 10 years :)

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